Sunday, December 2, 2007

I'm Way Down Here!!!

How old are you? Don't answer me, just think about it. Well guess what. I'm 18. Sometimes I wish I had someone to blog to that was my age. I would love to talk to Red Dirt Girl at my age. Mother of Invention, Grizzbabe, Annalisa, Barbara, Kissyface, Old Lady, Gewels. I look up to all of you, I respect you. You are all amazing people. I would love to have known you when you were my age. Sometimes, I just need to talk to someone my own age.

It seems that everyone I know in this, the Blogging World, is a generation ahead of me. Serves me right too, yall are my Dad's friends. I have just now begun to get to know you, but already I know our friendships will be hindered by the age difference. When you comment on my posts, you will see me as Steve's Daughter, I will see you as My Dad's Friends. I want it to be different, but I'm afraid it may never change. I'm in a different world from you. I'm in college still. Most of you are set in your career, have children, or have taken steps toward one of both of those things.

I think I want to work with whales. Maybe Orcas. Possibly Belugas. Perhaps even the illustrious Blue. Or ya know what, if that falls through, I would love to have a chance to work with Tigers. Maybe Horses. I don't have a boyfriend right now, but if I did it would be a boy from Denver, Colorado that I spent my summer with. He has met my parents, but that doesn't matter to me. All I know is that he is my best friend and so much more. Colorado is still a junior in high school though, and even those two years is a bit much of a difference for us to handle right now.

How am I supposed to relate to, to talk to, confide in, my dad's friends. Who are all a generation ahead of me. I'm not sure why I'm feeling this way, maybe I just need to go home, but I needed to say it.

9 comments:

Mother of Invention said...

You're right, of course. We are great to be here for you when you want to hear us and we totally support you, but it would be great to find bloggers who are in college. There must be a way to find them. Too bad there's not a phone book of bloggers and what categories they are in..like age, profession, location etc. I hardly know any Canadian bloggers so I feel kind of distanced too in that way.

I hope you find some blogging friends.

Water Baby said...

Moi, I think I'm going to try looking through blogs, just finding friends of friends of friends until I find some bloggers my age and start reading those and commenting on those... That may be the best way for me to make some friends, I'm not sure though.

GrizzBabe said...

You know, I found my boyfriend by searching through blogger profiles. Maybe that would work for you. Maybe you could find some other kids your age by doing a profile search.

GEWELS said...

Does it count if I still feel, and sometimes act, 18?

That is a tough age. Too much change, too much worry about the future and boys and girlfriends and clothes and grades and......whew!

We have all been through that age and you may be surprised that it probably was no different than what you're going through now. Just because we're older doesn't mean that we can't listen, commiserate, give you advice or our shoulder to lean on. My boys do it all the time, I think because they know I get it.

And, if you want to talk horses count me in. I have totally fallen in love with those creatures.

In my blog searches I've come across tons of kids your age....you might be surprised who you find.

Water Baby said...

Grizzbabe, I didn't know that, that's really cool! I'm not sure what I'm going to search for, but I'll find somethiing that will lead me to other teenagers... I feel like I'm on some sort of quest :-)...

Gewels, I'm really glad yall understand, I really look up to you guys! I love getting advice and constructive criticism from you, it helps me so much. I didn't even think about it like that, thank you for bringing it to my attention that yall have been through this before! Yall are an amazing source of wisdom and support, thank you!

Max Coutinho said...

Hello Sierra,

I don't know your dad, I am 30, and I am Portuguese!
I blog with people from all age ranges (from 17 to 45), so if you wish you may try to interact with me :).

http://maxcouti.blogspot.com

By the way, I found you through groups :).

Cheers

bulletholes said...

its funny Water baby...these blog friends of mine they aren't just good readers...they are good listeners...unlike some friends of mine they do not sit there thinking about their grocery list while I'm talking to them nor are they eager to explain where i went wrong.
You'll find some friends out there ...find someone that is writing from their gut and that is not getting a lot of comments...
my rule of thumb was anyone getting nore than 15 comments a day didn't need another friend.

Anonymous said...

Oh Water Baby,

It would have been so cool to have a friend like you at 18 ... i didn't have too many girlfriends at the time ...seemed like i ended up with more guy friends (i always worried girls were judging me - guys? who cared ??) plus guys are low maintenance. You can not talk to them for weeks at a time and then pick up where you left off ... no issues. Do that with a girlfriend?? hmmmm. not good.

With that said, I wish I COULD somehow bridge the generation gap with you. But I suppose just pure experience of time on earth separates us. I bet you, though, we feel and experience a lot of the same thoughts and fears and hopes and joys.

I have a 21 year old step daughter. Alas, she is not a blogger. I will say we are pretty good friends now. At least I like to think so. She always likes to call me up and share her good news .. or complain about one of her friends - heh. heh. But mostly I appreciate her willingness to stay connected while I go through this divorce with her father. Now that is love.

peace and xxx,
red

Water Baby said...

Max, Thank you for visiting! I'll check it out!

Dad, thanks, i tried using the "Next Blog" button at the top, but you never know what your going to get with that, sometimes that's not a bad thing though!

RDG, I never have any girlfriends! All of my friends tend to be guys or other girls in my group of guys! I think it's really cool that you and your step daughter have a good relationship, me and my step dad don't get along at all. I love having the input of older people because of the amazing life experience that you can share with me.